Yesterday was a big hit. The thing is, it wasn't big and complicated. And I loved it. I love the sweet little things. They make me very happy. :D We woke up early, went to breakfast, came home and hung out, went to a movie with some friends, and I made dinner. In between breakfast and the movie though, I gave him his jazz tickets and he wants to take me, which makes me very happy. LOL I know this probably sounds weird, but I figured he'd rather take someone who he wouldn't have to explain to every 3 minutes. LOL But he gave me the most beautiful flowers, while I was laying in bed I could smell them. Hopefully I can get some pictures of them up soon so you can see too. :D There were some other things, but those little moments are between us. :D
Long story short, I have the most amazing man in my life and I am so excited to share many many more Valentines Days with him.
I don't think I will be forgetting this Valentines Day, ever. :D
Monday, February 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Sunday, December 6, 2009
grow up already.
I wonder when people really grow up.
When does it become official?
And who says so?
Is it the said person that grows up who says when is when?
Is it their family?
Is it their friends?
Is it their lover?
Or is it an age?
Is someone really an adult when then turn 18?
19?
21?
Or can they become grown up before they are 18?
Is it all situational?
Or is it the same for everyone?
Is there some defining moment that has to happen?
Or is it a string of events?
I'm just so confused right now.
Some one please help me figure this out. :(
When does it become official?
And who says so?
Is it the said person that grows up who says when is when?
Is it their family?
Is it their friends?
Is it their lover?
Or is it an age?
Is someone really an adult when then turn 18?
19?
21?
Or can they become grown up before they are 18?
Is it all situational?
Or is it the same for everyone?
Is there some defining moment that has to happen?
Or is it a string of events?
I'm just so confused right now.
Some one please help me figure this out. :(
Special Pleading
You'll Hear it As:
"I know I was a heroin addict, but this is different. It's meth."
How It Screws Us:
Although it sounds like what you'll need to do to get your significant other to, just this once, try on a rubber hood and call you "Duke," Special Pleading is actually when we allow something to be an exception to a rule, for no logical reason.
In every day life, people use Special Pleading to make them feel less guilty about doing shitty things. When someone else eats the last doughnut, they're a classless motherfucker who deserves to rot in Hell; when you or a friend does it, it's because you were really hungry and you've had a bad day and you didn't get any doughnuts the last time. Special Pleading is the lettuce in mankind's hypocrisy salad.
We'll slow down with the food references, now.
It Gets Worse...
You don't need us to point out examples of hypocrisy, from cops who won't write traffic tickets to other cops, to politicians who talk about how important the public school system is while putting their own kids in a exclusive private schools.
What's interesting is how everyone excuses it in their own mind.
You can't find anyone who simply says, "The rules don't apply to us because we're awesome!" Thanks to Special Pleading, there are elaborate mental gymnastics that happen inside them that eliminate even their feelings of guilt. And the thing is, sometimes they're right; you did call your boss a motherfucker because you were having a bad day. You do have bad habits due to your childhood upbringing. You were abrupt with your girlfriend because you were running late.
But what's strange is we don't let anyone else have those excuses. The girl behind the counter at Starbucks wasn't rude because she was having a bad day. She's just a bitch. The kid at Best Buy wasn't just clueless about the return policy, he was intentionally evil and trying to steal your money. Some of us have held grudges for years, based on actions by someone else that we've forgiven ourselves for doing countless times.
They might as well call it the "This Is Why The World Seems to be Full of Dicks" fallacy.
"I know I was a heroin addict, but this is different. It's meth."
How It Screws Us:
Although it sounds like what you'll need to do to get your significant other to, just this once, try on a rubber hood and call you "Duke," Special Pleading is actually when we allow something to be an exception to a rule, for no logical reason.
In every day life, people use Special Pleading to make them feel less guilty about doing shitty things. When someone else eats the last doughnut, they're a classless motherfucker who deserves to rot in Hell; when you or a friend does it, it's because you were really hungry and you've had a bad day and you didn't get any doughnuts the last time. Special Pleading is the lettuce in mankind's hypocrisy salad.
We'll slow down with the food references, now.
It Gets Worse...
You don't need us to point out examples of hypocrisy, from cops who won't write traffic tickets to other cops, to politicians who talk about how important the public school system is while putting their own kids in a exclusive private schools.
What's interesting is how everyone excuses it in their own mind.
You can't find anyone who simply says, "The rules don't apply to us because we're awesome!" Thanks to Special Pleading, there are elaborate mental gymnastics that happen inside them that eliminate even their feelings of guilt. And the thing is, sometimes they're right; you did call your boss a motherfucker because you were having a bad day. You do have bad habits due to your childhood upbringing. You were abrupt with your girlfriend because you were running late.
But what's strange is we don't let anyone else have those excuses. The girl behind the counter at Starbucks wasn't rude because she was having a bad day. She's just a bitch. The kid at Best Buy wasn't just clueless about the return policy, he was intentionally evil and trying to steal your money. Some of us have held grudges for years, based on actions by someone else that we've forgiven ourselves for doing countless times.
They might as well call it the "This Is Why The World Seems to be Full of Dicks" fallacy.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
thanksgiving.
So I totally screwed this one up. I pushed the "SAVE NOW" button instead of the "PUBLISH POST" button. Classic case of ditzyness from miss Ashley, nothing new. So, here it is a little late. ahahahaha. :)
Its that time of year again. I feel that we are losing the meaning of these holidays. So I'm going to try and bring back the meaning for me and my family at least.
I am thankful for...
-My friends:
---Jen has been there for me through everything the past 7 years and I couldn't have done it without her. She is truly a wonderful person. And I pray that she can find someone just as wonderful as she is to share her life with and to love her.
---Tyson, where to even begin. LOL We come and go, but I know that if I ever needed ANYTHING I could come to him, and I hope he feels the same about me. I will be here through thick and thin. You are an amazing coffee buddy. ahahaha
Its that time of year again. I feel that we are losing the meaning of these holidays. So I'm going to try and bring back the meaning for me and my family at least.
I am thankful for...
-God. He is an almighty God! He is an amazing God! I can't even begin to tell you how we need to thank him everyday for his great blessings that he has given us. I'm not here to preach, so I just hope that you take a minute and tell him thank you this Thursday.
-My family:
---I am so thankful for my mamma, she is the most amazing, strong, beautiful woman I know. I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for her. I honestly don't have words to describe how I feel about my mom. It brings me to tears when I think about all she's done for me and her love for me and my brother, Skylar.
---My dad and Nikki, we've had our ups and downs but I know they will always love me and be supportive of me. They are such wonderful parents, very different from my mom, but still wonderful. I know I haven't been doing very good showing them that I love them, but I am really going to try and change that.
---My 'other dad', Rob, this man has taught me so much about life. He's taught me how to live. How to be a good person and to stand up for myself. He's taught me about religion and spirituality. He's taught me about love and relationships. And he stepped in and became a dad when no one asked him to. Thank you Rob, for being such an amazing man and father.
---My little brother Skylar. He's such an amazing boy. It's funny how I can turn to him and just cry and complain to him and he'll just play with my hair until I stop crying. I think he's turning into a wonderful young man, and he's going to make some girl very happy some day. But not any time soon. LOL
---The rest of my brothers and sisters have all helped me so much. They all have their special skills and talents that have touched my heart. So Dena, Will, Tad, Amber, Luke, Sara, Rian, Megan, Erica, and Aaron thank you for being in my life and loving me.
---My grandparents, I love all of them, but there are two in particular that are very dear to me. Kathy and Don Sansone are my inspiration. Because of them I know what love is supposed to be like. I know that it is possible in all this mess to be with someone and love that person forever. And I just want to thank them for the amazing role models they have been for me and the rest of my family I'm sure. They are wonderful parents, wonderful grandparents, wonderful friends, and wonderful mentors. I love you both very very much.
---They have all helped me through so much. I can't ever repay them.
-Scott: He is such an amazing man and I am so lucky to have him in my life. I sure hope I get to keep it that way. LOL But this man is so sweet and compassionate and loving its amazing that I get to love him and be with him. And I am so very thankful that God put us together. I can't even begin to imagine a life without him. He is my rock. He helps me with so much, I know I definitely don't tell him enough so I am going to try and work on that. I am going to tell him at least once a day just so he knows that he is appreciated and loved. Scott, thank you and I love you.
-My friends:
---Jen has been there for me through everything the past 7 years and I couldn't have done it without her. She is truly a wonderful person. And I pray that she can find someone just as wonderful as she is to share her life with and to love her.
---Tyson, where to even begin. LOL We come and go, but I know that if I ever needed ANYTHING I could come to him, and I hope he feels the same about me. I will be here through thick and thin. You are an amazing coffee buddy. ahahaha
sometimes life just seems like chapters of goodbyes.
Ugh. So much is going on right now and I just want it all to stop. I want to just crawl into bed and wake up in a few weeks. There would be snow on the ground, christmas would be right around the corner, and I'd be with my family. The only people I can count on lately. I am so lucky to have them in my life. And I'm so grateful for them. I'm sure I don't say it enough, but I am very grateful for them. I thank God every day for my parents, my brothers and sisters, and the rest of my amazing family.
You know what else would be good? If I could go back a year and do things over. I would do so much different! It's crazy to think of the things you did just 12 months ago thinking they were a good idea. And then when you look back all you can say is; "SHIIIT! I really fucked that up didn't I?" It's so hard to think about things like that though, because you can't do anything to change it. But I guess we can learn from it right? That's what life is all about isn't it? Making mistakes and growing and learning from them?
I have learned something the past couple weeks though. I realized my priorities were all out of whack. God is my first priority. Then my family and loved ones. Then me. I hope I can stick with it.
I am so damn sick of people talking behind my back. Fuck. It's fucking getting old. For real. And most of the people talking shit have a good 5-6 years on me! GROW THE FUCK UP! Seriously. How old are you? Did you get stuck in high school or something. Or are you just so bored with your life that you need to talk about mine?
Right now i wish i had my mother's strength to just say fuck it to everything. I'm not as strong as her though, not even close. I hope that one day i can be. What happened to the mean little bitch i used to be in high school who didn't give two shits about anybody or what they said? where did that girl go? I'd like for her to come back now please.
I wish crying made everything better. I wish it washed all the bad stuff away.
You know what else would be good? If I could go back a year and do things over. I would do so much different! It's crazy to think of the things you did just 12 months ago thinking they were a good idea. And then when you look back all you can say is; "SHIIIT! I really fucked that up didn't I?" It's so hard to think about things like that though, because you can't do anything to change it. But I guess we can learn from it right? That's what life is all about isn't it? Making mistakes and growing and learning from them?
I have learned something the past couple weeks though. I realized my priorities were all out of whack. God is my first priority. Then my family and loved ones. Then me. I hope I can stick with it.
I am so damn sick of people talking behind my back. Fuck. It's fucking getting old. For real. And most of the people talking shit have a good 5-6 years on me! GROW THE FUCK UP! Seriously. How old are you? Did you get stuck in high school or something. Or are you just so bored with your life that you need to talk about mine?
Right now i wish i had my mother's strength to just say fuck it to everything. I'm not as strong as her though, not even close. I hope that one day i can be. What happened to the mean little bitch i used to be in high school who didn't give two shits about anybody or what they said? where did that girl go? I'd like for her to come back now please.
I wish crying made everything better. I wish it washed all the bad stuff away.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Happy Happy Day!!!
Things finally seem to be going my way! I got a new job and put in my two weeks at roosters. So I only have 3 Saturdays left and I'm done there. It couldn't have come at a better time! :D
Wannetta and I are going to see the MJ movie on Sunday and I'm super excited! Scott doesn't want to go with me, suprise suprise. I've noticed if I want to go see a movie I just have to go with someone else. LOL Which is fine with me, I just wish he was with us. But it's ok, it's just a movie.
And I got an e-mail from Elder Christian Austin Tallman!! I only have to say that for a few more days. I'm going up to Idaho on the 8th to see him and couldn't be happier or more excited! But I have no idea where the church is or what time. ugh. I have to figure that shit out. And to top it off, that's Jen's birthday. So when I get home we're gonna party! :D Whoot Whoot.
I finally got Scott and Sky together to get my parent's christmas presents together. I love the way it's turning out so far. Just need a little money now and everything will be complete. :D
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